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::shengie::
gender
male
age
21
dob
7-11, it's a store and more :p
horoscope
scorpio, tough one eh?
hometown
teck whye, singapore
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johns hopkins, baltimore, maryland
occupation
student
yes yes
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no no
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wujassng@hotmail.com
icq 44783954
aim
aidanwu84
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Me to Alex one day on 151
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19.6.03
everyone's out for lunch, and i'm staying
why am i staying? they ask me. i shrug. shouldn't we all have to stay at some points in our lives? i didn't mind staying today, despite it being western this afternoon.
a stayer. a quitter. which reminds me: in slightly more than 2 years i'll be flying off to US (or UK, if my perceptions change or if the environment makes the US too dangerous to study in). And then for 8 years i'll be back for about only 2 months a year, and even so I wouldn't exactly be free to do whatever I want; i'll be attached to some research institute (probably the one under Prof Jackie Ying since i'll be majoring in biomedical engineering.) After getting my PhD, i'll be working 24/7 in the same research institutions or perhaps as a consultant in one of the then budding technology companies in our economy. Which isn't too bad considering the other alternatives would be being on stand-by 24hours as a doctor, or 'enjoying' a typical 8-5 job as an administrative guy, with every night off for socialising and the certainly mundane routine that will one will inevitably face after a night of pleasure. Which wouldn't give me much more satisfaction than if i am part of a new discovery which would lead to a whole new branch of industry in the local pharmaceutical, surgical, tissue replacement, cancer cure scene. IF i am part of it. Oh well. But, how much will i actually still be a singaporean? what defines 'singaporeanism', if i could coin that word? i have a US education, a global network of researchers and professors, mentors (even people i work with in singapore may not necessarily be singaporean), but one thing that matters most: i am born in singapore, by true-blue singaporean parents, my educational foundations were laid here, my emotional development, albeit for the better or for the worse, was entrenched in this singaporean air that i'm breathing right now, and my family and till-now-limited social network of friends are mostly on this small potentially insignificant island of 620km^2, more individually, my perspective of the world was developed from this unique position, though it is surely dynamic and would change as i move on in life.
XC's stoning with me. i recall a prose i wrote way back in sec 2, titled "Solitude". well, kind of expresses the loneliness one feels when he is going through the period of solitude all by himself, and he knows that it is an inevitable wastage of his life due to the justice that prevails (or ought to prevail) in this world, i.e. a jailbird
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AidanWu was here on 12:40 pm
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16.6.03
Ju-on
(no spoilers. thought it wouldn't even matter. oops, what a spoiler. heh. sorry man.)
The Grudge
Ji4 Du4
14Jun2003
7:30pm
An almost empty movie theatre.
A petite young Japanese girl, a volunteer. A house. Average props. Average effects.
No story.
$8.50 down the well. (Think the Ring? Heh.)
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AidanWu was here on 3:49 pm
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boo!
this is boring.
sigh.
the pinnacle of boredom.
what's boring? boredom seems to be more suitably measured in terms of depth; how 'boring' something is is analogous to how 'deep' the valley (or extent) of boredom is; which seems ironical that the pinnacle of boredom should even have crossed my mind.
the story of a bored man seems to be the story of his survival; what happens to a man who doesn't conquer boredom?
Boredom conquers the man; boredom consumes the man.
The thing is, if man could just make the effort to conquer boredom, he would gain so much from it in terms of time well-spent. But, if boredom conquers him, does boredom gain anything from it? No. It just continues its journey hunting for another victim.
Therefore, I shall stop feeling bored and do something constructive with my time now.
What if there's no way to overcome boredom?
Then someone will throw this age-old adage to you, "When there's a will, there's a way."
What if there's no will?
Impossible.
Else I won't be surviving the boredom till now.
In the end, there's no choice. But to conquer it.
Which gives rise to the question, "What is choice?" Choice is relative. People could give you a choice between something which is the only thing that works and countless other 'things' that presumably contribute to your freedom of choice but which are all dead-end roads that, like in a maze, ultimately leaves you with only one choice.
One choice. Is it still a choice? Talk about paradoxes.
Is it a man's choice when he feels bored? Could he choose not to be bored? Can you force someone to be bored? Intrinsically, it is quite hard, given Man's inherent capacity to think and generate thoughts out of zilch. But that takes a motivated man. An utterly demoralised man, devoid of self-confidence, wholesome relationships and meaning in life, will he bother to think? If he doesn't bother to think, how can he not be bored? So is boredom forced upon him?
In a way, maybe.
But, the cause for his boredom still lies with his choice not to think. Notice I said 'will he bother to think?'. That means he had a choice: to bother or not. If he didn't bother, he made a choice. Which led to his boredom. And hence it wasn't forced upon him.
Therefore, it boils down to a matter of choice. But which is still relative, considering some people consider 'not bothering to think' as a dead-end, which cannot (or should not) be considered in the first place, and hence presumably leaving one with only one choice. Or to rephrase, no choice at all.
Hmm...the complexity of life.
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AidanWu was here on 3:41 pm
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13.6.03
woah woah....it's been 2 weeks since i last blogged..haha guess i've just been pretty busy these two weeks huh
well..it's western today but i'm staying cos i'm kidna sian of making the trip to the cookhouse..well tmr my grandpa and aunt's coming over for dinner. whee~~ the meal'll be an uncanny mixture of curry chicken and pizza (haha..but i love them all the same!)
hmm, read a rather negative review of Ju-on, don't know if i should still watch it or not...but i really wanna watch something scary nowadays! kekeke. And trailer really seemed so promising..yea i am kinda disappointed. Next sunday's my duty plus i have to give tuition on sat and attend driving theory lessons.......sigh next weekend's gone just like that and i can't exactly go out his weekend either cos i've tuition on sunday afternoon and the sat dinner. hmm, nvm, maybe i'll just go for my usual swim on sat afternoon and try to relax for the rest of the weekend!
mother juliana suggested playing volleyball this weekend, guess that'll have to wait~
and next friday i have to attend a practice session for the "racing horses" item my groups is putting up for the astar presentation ceremony!!!! Argh...forced to solo..hahaha
Hope it turns out well..really, else quite malu..:p
Gagagagaga, cya for now
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AidanWu was here on 11:52 am
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